Completed:
Overall clean-up
Install AUX-IN
Installed Dash Clock
Fixed Front Driver's Window
Added Maplite Dome Light
Things that need to be done:
Clean out mold from interior
Detail/Get rid of dog hair
Reupholster headliner
Fix Dash Clock - Wire it up, install lightbulb
Fix Squealing Noise
Full Tune Up
Monday, August 15, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Still one of my favorite commercials of all time
Sadly it never got air time because some people (*cough*focusonthefamily*cough*) felt it was unacceptable because it "promoted" the homosexual lifestyle. I guess the only way we can keep ourselves from "promoting" a homosexual lifestyle and "shoving our homosexuality down their throats" is by burning gays at the stake or covering our ears while walking down the street screaming "LALALALALAGAYSDON'TEXISTLALALALALA".
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Peh.
I need a vacation from work. Classes are eating me alive and I'm now recovering from a two day, non-effort, due to me being in LA and visiting Marie. I can't do both anymore. My boyfriend wants me to stick through it, but I think he just prioritizes my income over my education, which I don't. Especially not since I will be getting Financial Aid in a week or so. He's worried that it won't come in a format that I can use or whatever, but I've been assured otherwise. I noticed that he always encourages me to not get my hopes up about something, because of all these things that could go wrong with it.
I tend to disagree with that outlook. I'd rather raise my hopes up about everything and have them crushed then always being pessimistic. The thing is that when my hopes are crushed, it's really not all that devastating. I pick up the pieces and move on, after all there are always new opportunities and new horizons.
We enjoyed a nice Fourth of July, but it was promptly soured when my bf's mom realized that her other son had stolen yet ANOTHER precious memento to pawn off for drugs or whatever. She was wailing the way my mother would wail when I'd get a D in a class, suspended from school, or tell her I was gay. Makes me want to thwack that boy upside his head. I got disowned by my parents simply for being with the one I loved, while he is severely emotionally and financially harming his family and his mother continues to hold on to him and refuse to punish him because she "can't take it". I really can't understand her mentality.
I, and everyone else I know would kick that loser out on his ass, but she's far too soft. It's not entirely her fault, but I can draw some connections to the way her son acts and her lack of action when it comes to disciplining him. I wonder how Erik turned out so well.
When I saw how much I was hurting my parents simply by being gay, I up and left, because I was tired of hurting them. Without me there as a physical reminder, I believe in time they should be able to let me go and forget about me at least to the extent where my mother isn't wailing every night and attempting to commit suicide. I am after all a human being. I am separate, I am an individual, and if I choose it, I can choose to have no connections to anyone else in this life.
If that boy of hers has any shred of humility or shame left, he'll just leave on his own and support himself rather than simply mooching off his parents. They give him so much shit, he doesn't know how good he has it. They just bought him a new car and a new motorcycle (he's had like 1 or 2 cars before as well which he destroyed). And he complains that his parents don't give him enough, saying that if he had money like they did, he'd buy his kids a sports car or whatever. He's a dumb-ass kid who is already screwed because he got himself addicted to stupid shit.
Missed work today because we were up so late last night, and I have a shitton of homework to do.
I tend to disagree with that outlook. I'd rather raise my hopes up about everything and have them crushed then always being pessimistic. The thing is that when my hopes are crushed, it's really not all that devastating. I pick up the pieces and move on, after all there are always new opportunities and new horizons.
We enjoyed a nice Fourth of July, but it was promptly soured when my bf's mom realized that her other son had stolen yet ANOTHER precious memento to pawn off for drugs or whatever. She was wailing the way my mother would wail when I'd get a D in a class, suspended from school, or tell her I was gay. Makes me want to thwack that boy upside his head. I got disowned by my parents simply for being with the one I loved, while he is severely emotionally and financially harming his family and his mother continues to hold on to him and refuse to punish him because she "can't take it". I really can't understand her mentality.
I, and everyone else I know would kick that loser out on his ass, but she's far too soft. It's not entirely her fault, but I can draw some connections to the way her son acts and her lack of action when it comes to disciplining him. I wonder how Erik turned out so well.
When I saw how much I was hurting my parents simply by being gay, I up and left, because I was tired of hurting them. Without me there as a physical reminder, I believe in time they should be able to let me go and forget about me at least to the extent where my mother isn't wailing every night and attempting to commit suicide. I am after all a human being. I am separate, I am an individual, and if I choose it, I can choose to have no connections to anyone else in this life.
If that boy of hers has any shred of humility or shame left, he'll just leave on his own and support himself rather than simply mooching off his parents. They give him so much shit, he doesn't know how good he has it. They just bought him a new car and a new motorcycle (he's had like 1 or 2 cars before as well which he destroyed). And he complains that his parents don't give him enough, saying that if he had money like they did, he'd buy his kids a sports car or whatever. He's a dumb-ass kid who is already screwed because he got himself addicted to stupid shit.
Missed work today because we were up so late last night, and I have a shitton of homework to do.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
I've started classes!!!
I've started classes, and posting in this blog may be the onset of the procrastination that I already feel setting in.
I'm very apprehensive about this new quarter. First off, I'm not very confident at all in the knowledge of my subject matter. Sure I was able to pretty much ace the CSET tests (save for that last essay question), but a standing understanding of a broad knowledge of Biology which can be maintained over a long period of time and explained to students is very different than the ability to cram for an ace a subject matter test, which is what I've felt I've done. I am by no means an expert at Biology and in many instances I've had to run to the textbook to look up an answer to a question a student has asked me.
Sure I've probably encountered all these answers before in my past, but I have by no means internalized them. I am unsure how well prepared my cohort is in the teaching program. Notably, most of them are social science majors, but I fear I won't be able to stand up to the knowledge of my fellow Biology focused friends. Speaking of which, Biology dominates the Science content focusers, over every other subject. Not too surprising seeing as how it seems to be one of the most common majors in Universities these days.
I am already swamped with work, and I spent the better part of yesterday simply organizing all my deadlines and class times in a calendar. I still don't have everything, as I'm waiting on the syllabus for a certain class. I've also very nearly spent 500 dollars on books for this quarter alone. My budget of 1700 for books for the whole year may have been a gross underestimate. I honestly do have a passion for teaching, but I really don't feel it at this moment taking classes which I have to bus-Bart-bus-walkfor30minutesinthesun to. I am still desperately waiting for Financial Aid to come through. At this point, I believe I have attained it, but am simply waiting for the damned bureaucracy to finish doing whatever it is they're doing. I owe the school over 2000 dollars, and my mind is beginning to lose its financial acumen. I've been blowing my budget with impulse purchases for two weeks now, and I have near to no income. I also (DESPERATELY DESPERATELY PLEASE-GOD-OH-PLEASE-GIVE-ME-ONE) need a car. I really want to move as well, as I can't take it much longer in this 4 foot by 4 foot square box.
At least my campus is beautiful. I am taking 6-7 classes this summer with the same exact people that I will be having in all of my classes for the next year, so I hope I don't get sick of them or they don't get sick of me. Actually, I think that this is a very good way of going about things. Reminds me of Elementary School, where you had the same classmates all year. You network, you actually get to know people (instead of sitting there for an hour and disappearing off to lord-knows-where without talking to a soul - Like I usually do), and exchange contact information so you can watch out for each other in case you forget something. As always I still feel a bit like an outsider. When the big group of students is out having lunch together at the same table in the quad, I'm generally inside buying something to eat, or talking on my phone. I guess it takes effort to simply gravitate to large crowds of people and integrate yourself into it. I'm probably simply not interested. I'm content with being friendly and cooperative, but by no means am I a 'buddy'. I know teachers are supposed to teach group activity and working together, but I guess I'm a poor model for that.
I'm very apprehensive about this new quarter. First off, I'm not very confident at all in the knowledge of my subject matter. Sure I was able to pretty much ace the CSET tests (save for that last essay question), but a standing understanding of a broad knowledge of Biology which can be maintained over a long period of time and explained to students is very different than the ability to cram for an ace a subject matter test, which is what I've felt I've done. I am by no means an expert at Biology and in many instances I've had to run to the textbook to look up an answer to a question a student has asked me.
Sure I've probably encountered all these answers before in my past, but I have by no means internalized them. I am unsure how well prepared my cohort is in the teaching program. Notably, most of them are social science majors, but I fear I won't be able to stand up to the knowledge of my fellow Biology focused friends. Speaking of which, Biology dominates the Science content focusers, over every other subject. Not too surprising seeing as how it seems to be one of the most common majors in Universities these days.
I am already swamped with work, and I spent the better part of yesterday simply organizing all my deadlines and class times in a calendar. I still don't have everything, as I'm waiting on the syllabus for a certain class. I've also very nearly spent 500 dollars on books for this quarter alone. My budget of 1700 for books for the whole year may have been a gross underestimate. I honestly do have a passion for teaching, but I really don't feel it at this moment taking classes which I have to bus-Bart-bus-walkfor30minutesinthesun to. I am still desperately waiting for Financial Aid to come through. At this point, I believe I have attained it, but am simply waiting for the damned bureaucracy to finish doing whatever it is they're doing. I owe the school over 2000 dollars, and my mind is beginning to lose its financial acumen. I've been blowing my budget with impulse purchases for two weeks now, and I have near to no income. I also (DESPERATELY DESPERATELY PLEASE-GOD-OH-PLEASE-GIVE-ME-ONE) need a car. I really want to move as well, as I can't take it much longer in this 4 foot by 4 foot square box.
At least my campus is beautiful. I am taking 6-7 classes this summer with the same exact people that I will be having in all of my classes for the next year, so I hope I don't get sick of them or they don't get sick of me. Actually, I think that this is a very good way of going about things. Reminds me of Elementary School, where you had the same classmates all year. You network, you actually get to know people (instead of sitting there for an hour and disappearing off to lord-knows-where without talking to a soul - Like I usually do), and exchange contact information so you can watch out for each other in case you forget something. As always I still feel a bit like an outsider. When the big group of students is out having lunch together at the same table in the quad, I'm generally inside buying something to eat, or talking on my phone. I guess it takes effort to simply gravitate to large crowds of people and integrate yourself into it. I'm probably simply not interested. I'm content with being friendly and cooperative, but by no means am I a 'buddy'. I know teachers are supposed to teach group activity and working together, but I guess I'm a poor model for that.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Creep
So I was listening to a song today that reminded me of my high school years on my way back from work today (if anyone is wondering, it was "Creep" by Radiohead), and of my awkward feelings of love towards this fellow named James who I had a huge crush on. Since I graduated from High School I had always wondered what had happened to James, because the last I'd heard of him his mom had died, and he dropped out of classes and college track team, and I think he was still dating that bitch he was dating in High School that made him look completely unhappy all the time. I've never really been able to talk to him since I started crushing on him (oddly enough, I sat in the same group with him for half a year and had no problem talking to him or had any feelings for him for whatever reason). The last time I talked to him, was extremely awkward and embarrassing, and I can't really describe it.
Anyway, this song really filled me with memories of him, and his beautiful smile. I had searched on Facebook and the rest of the internet for him for about 5 years now? He never came up. I decided to try again today, and lo and behold his page came up. It was brand new, and he had 20 friends, and his profile picture had that same good'ol beautiful smile of his and he was standing next to a beautiful girl who looked really kind. She was wearing an Army shirt, and his page noted that he was a Specialist in the Army, as a Field Medic.
I'm just extremely happy to know that he's doing well now. He'll never know the feelings I had for him, and I'll probably never stop loving him from afar and wishing him well and safe wherever he is. I didn't friend him on Facebook, and I don't think I will. I just wanted to know that he was still around, and now I do. =]
Anyway, this song really filled me with memories of him, and his beautiful smile. I had searched on Facebook and the rest of the internet for him for about 5 years now? He never came up. I decided to try again today, and lo and behold his page came up. It was brand new, and he had 20 friends, and his profile picture had that same good'ol beautiful smile of his and he was standing next to a beautiful girl who looked really kind. She was wearing an Army shirt, and his page noted that he was a Specialist in the Army, as a Field Medic.
I'm just extremely happy to know that he's doing well now. He'll never know the feelings I had for him, and I'll probably never stop loving him from afar and wishing him well and safe wherever he is. I didn't friend him on Facebook, and I don't think I will. I just wanted to know that he was still around, and now I do. =]
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Financial Aid
I recently got accepted for the dependency override for financial aid. However while I was waiting for that, I should have filled out a bunch of forms and applied for scholarships. I now have a four day deadline to get some letters of rec and write out another personal statement. In any case, things are looking up.
My boyfriend is driving me crazy. I don't know why he does this, but some times he just totally shuts himself off from me and gets pissy and angry. It really pisses me off. The worst thing is, even if I wanted to break up with him, it's probably not possible at this point because he is supporting me, more than I am supporting him. For instance, he always has the option of going back home or borrowing money from parents. I don't, so I am more dependent on him to keep making his rent payments and such. I love him though and I don't want it to come to that. But I really am in a precarious position until I can finally get a stable career.
My boyfriend is driving me crazy. I don't know why he does this, but some times he just totally shuts himself off from me and gets pissy and angry. It really pisses me off. The worst thing is, even if I wanted to break up with him, it's probably not possible at this point because he is supporting me, more than I am supporting him. For instance, he always has the option of going back home or borrowing money from parents. I don't, so I am more dependent on him to keep making his rent payments and such. I love him though and I don't want it to come to that. But I really am in a precarious position until I can finally get a stable career.
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