Well, it's yet another blog by me. I've been blogging since I was 10 years old, and I'm now 22. My old ones have been tucked away as I've continued to mature and new things happened in my life. This is my current one. I'm not sure whether or not to expect much success from it, since I haven't blogged for about a year or more since my last blog. There were some failed starts, so the odds are, this one will die out too. I'm not exactly sure what approach to take on this one either. I generally just talk about what's going on in my life, or rant about something that's bothering me. I'm not really topic-centric. I don't expect people to read my blogs either. They're usually just like a diary for me. Though I don't not want people to read it either (yes folks, that was a double negative; you'll find, I'm not much a stickler for grammar though my spelling tends to be fairly exceptional).
As most blogs pertaining to the life of an individual tend to be self-centered in nature, I won't hesitate to dive in. As I said before I'm 22 years old, male, University graduate, and currently dating my boyfriend, so I'm gay, and that arrives with a lot of past baggage, which I won't dive too deeply into, but involves the usual story of a self-hating gay teenager, unaccepting highly religious parents condemning their son to hell then going into denial, and a bunch of delinquency. So I'm at the point where I'm moving out in a month and completely cutting myself off from them, moving into a place with my boyfriend and starting off on a career to become a high school biology teacher.
I'm currently at the stage where I'm getting my prerequisites done: 45 hours of volunteer work, CBESTs and CSETS (standardized tests, one of which is ridiculously easy, and the other of which is ridiculously difficult), and letters of recommendation. Luckily I got the biggest thing out of the way which is my bachelor's degree, and I learned the hard way that having a bachelor's doesn't guarantee you any higher pay or better job that the average high school graduate. I'm currently working as an assembler working crazy early hours in the morning and earning 11 bucks an hour, the same as high school dropouts and middle aged Asian women who can barely speak English who are looking to get their citizenship.
I'm in a relationship with my very first boyfriend (my first relationship at all period) who I've been with for nearly a year. We're not a perfect couple, we have nearly nothing in common, and I'm kind of paranoid and clingy, deathly afraid that he'll leave me at any moment for any reason, but I love him even if he frustrates me with some of his apathetic behavior. He's extremely mature, and I find him taking care of me more often than I take care of him, me being older by 2 years, but I still feel quite protective of him, and would do anything to keep him from harm.
While this is a short snapshot of where my life is right now, a snapshot doesn't do anything to lay out the intricate plans I have for the future and the myriad experiences I've had in the past. It does very little to explain my complex thought processes and prejudices, the hundreds of relationships I've had with ever person I've met, and the inspirations I've received from books I've read, movies I've watched, songs I've heard, or events I've lived through. I want to flesh out my life at this point through this blog, and I'll do it as it pops into my head, in an entirely mental progression. Let's see if this works.
